Spring 2018 so many years and no blogs

I was pondering why I have not written in so long and then I realized we have had a long season of pain, suffering and stuggles. The medical list is huge and long and boring. New hips, new lenses, new gastric feeding, new ways of being in our world. Recovering and adjusting to the new reality has been a long hard row to how. We have a weekly angel who cleans for us and even takes the dog for a walk on her Tuesday with us.

 We have a new puppy who after a year of three surgeries has become our new bestie. I cannot begin to tell you how much I love being outside with the Patches and her muzzle. The rock eater had to be rescued with major surgery and won't leave them alone so with the muzzle on and she is free to go outside. 

Don has continued to sit in his chair and welcome all who visit. Frontal Temporal Dementia with it's usual unkindly ways has been a constant companion for the dear heart, along with the horrendous headaches that increase in duration and severity. Some days he is at loss for words or cannot remember the word he is trying to say. I am not working outside the home any longer and have found many reasons to find different work in the home. Tube feeding, crushing all medications for tube feeding them. Supervising swallowing and intake of only soft mushy foods. Discovering the dog has been attacking the muffins and eating them in the long hours of the night, when Patches and I are sleeping in the bedroom with the closed door. Oh maybe it was Don after all as he coughs continually from the seeds and nuts in the muffins. Learning to laugh at the unfolding of the truth. Don's nights are days and days are nights. Learning to accept that the brain is unwravelling it's wiring and unable to be reset. FTD sucks big time, and we don't have the toughest case, no rages, no violence, just quiet resting in the agony of headaches and no enjoyment of shared meals together. Conversations are limited and the endless TV watching is continuing.

Out with the old

In with the new

For myself I am feeling so pain free and so full of energy that the garden is my place of delight. I have a brand new last year, greenhouse.
My greenhouse has a beautiful slate walkway that two fellows from church built, Ken and Mike and they did a wonderful job.
This year I have my green house full of begonias that I have saved the tubers for years and have about 30 of them potted up to prepare for the warmer weather, 12.

Caladiums that I have never been successful in bringing to full survival and will attempt one last time to grow to full size.

I have  a large quantity of dahlias that I have separated and planted in pots to encourage an early bloom. This year I bought quite a few more so will have a large planting of them. I am redoing my front beds and removing some not so lovely items that have overgrown and will fill the bed with dahlias as the deer do not seem to love them so much. It will be my intention to actually name them this year and keep tabs on them. That will keep me out of trouble around Sooke and I will be on a learning curve.
The new thing I am doing is taking clay pots, sealing them and painting them. It is a lot of fun and the sunroom is perfect for creating my new playthings. I have also taken my dozen fairies that have turned colour from grey to white and spray painted them a lovely brown and am adding colours to them and will settle them back in my garden in strategic places. The little darlings were purchased about 9 years ago and have survived outside all that time.

I have some dear friends and we share stories and hobbies together, I am learning to card create, don't send them but learning different techniques is so enjoyable. Making my own alcohol paints, embossing paper, creating different effects. Practicing the presence of God in all my ways is the perfect take away from all the chaos of daily life.

Isaiah 44 ►

New International Version Israel the Chosen 1“But now listen, Jacob, my servant, Israel, whom I have chosen. 2This is what the Lord says— he who made you, who formed you in the womb, and who will help you: Do not be afraid, Jacob, my servant, Jeshurun,a whom I have chosen. 3For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring, and my blessing on your descendants. 4They will spring up like grass in a meadow, like poplar trees by flowing streams. 5Some will say, ‘I belong to the Lord’; others will call themselves by the name of Jacob; still others will write on their hand, ‘The Lord’s,’ and will take the name Israel. The Lord, Not Idols 6“This is what the Lord says— Israel’s King and Redeemer, the Lord Almighty: I am the first and I am the last; apart from me there is no God. 7Who then is like me? Let him proclaim it. Let him declare and lay out before me what has happened since I established my ancient people, and what is yet to come— yes, let them foretell what will come. 8Do not tremble, do not be afraid. Did I not proclaim this and foretell it long ago? You are my witnesses. Is there any God besides me? No, there is no other Rock; I know not one.” 9All who make idols are nothing, and the things they treasure are worthless. Those who would speak up for them are blind; they are ignorant, to their own shame. 10Who shapes a god and casts an idol, which can profit nothing? 11People who do that will be put to shame; such craftsmen are only human beings. Let them all come together and take their stand; they will be brought down to terror and shame. 12The blacksmith takes a tool and works with it in the coals; he shapes an idol with hammers, he forges it with the might of his arm. He gets hungry and loses his strength; he drinks no water and grows faint. 13The carpenter measures with a line and makes an outline with a marker; he roughs it out with chisels and marks it with compasses. He shapes it in human form, human form in all its glory, that it may dwell in a shrine. 14He cut down cedars, or perhaps took a cypress or oak. He let it grow among the trees of the forest, or planted a pine, and the rain made it grow. 15It is used as fuel for burning; some of it he takes and warms himself, he kindles a fire and bakes bread. But he also fashions a god and worships it; he makes an idol and bows down to it. 16Half of the wood he burns in the fire; over it he prepares his meal, he roasts his meat and eats his fill. He also warms himself and says, “Ah! I am warm; I see the fire.” 17From the rest he makes a god, his idol; he bows down to it and worships. He prays to it and says, “Save me! You are my god!” 18They know nothing, they understand nothing; their eyes are plastered over so they cannot see, and their minds closed so they cannot understand. 19No one stops to think, no one has the knowledge or understanding to say, “Half of it I used for fuel; I even baked bread over its coals, I roasted meat and I ate. Shall I make a detestable thing from what is left? Shall I bow down to a block of wood?” 20Such a person feeds on ashes; a deluded heart misleads him; he cannot save himself, or say, “Is not this thing in my right hand a lie?” 21“Remember these things, Jacob, for you, Israel, are my servant. I have made you, you are my servant; Israel, I will not forget you. 22I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you.” 23Sing for joy, you heavens, for the Lord has done this; shout aloud, you earth beneath. Burst into song, you mountains, you forests and all your trees, for the Lord has redeemed Jacob, he displays his glory in Israel. Jerusalem to Be Inhabited 24“This is what the Lord says— your Redeemer, who formed you in the womb: I am the Lord, the Maker of all things, who stretches out the heavens, who spreads out the earth by myself, 25who foils the signs of false prophets and makes fools of diviners, who overthrows the learning of the wise and turns it into nonsense, 26who carries out the words of his servants and fulfills the predictions of his messengers, who says of Jerusalem, ‘It shall be inhabited,’ of the towns of Judah, ‘They shall be rebuilt,’ and of their ruins, ‘I will restore them,’ 27who says to the watery deep, ‘Be dry, and I will dry up your streams,’ 28who says of Cyrus, ‘He is my shepherd and will accomplish all that I please; he will say of Jerusalem, “Let it be rebuilt,” and of the temple, “Let its foundations be laid.” ’ Footnotes: a 2 Jeshurun means the upright one, that is, Israel. New International Version (NIV)